Laeghdee Shannon

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 14:43:02 GMT

Yesterday was probably the hardest day I have had so far. It was like a movie. Yadda yadda details aren't important..I work in an Alzheimer's facility. but I ended up walking out the door and didn't finish crying from that moment until I got home on the computer. I also was hoping that someone actually wanted to talk and cared that I was upset.

Blah blah blah i'm a girl and have emotions.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 05:47:50 GMT

I've become afraid of sleep again. I keep going through these phases periodically and they are absolutely miserable. I don't know what exactly sets off the bad dreams and severe paranoia that fuels this fear, but I know there wouldn't be one without the other.

There are so many things that are confusing me that I can't quite understand at all. Ultimately, I am trying to better myself and try to keep the people I love around me. But the more I look into it, it seems that there have been a lot of things that happened TO me to make me this way...but isn't that how everyone's life is?

Let's just call this an identity crisis.

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 02:35:08 GMT

so it's been a hot minute since I updated. Things on the job front are going really well minus the fact that my office is still super bare. All I really have is a little picture and a lucky bamboo.
My birthday was nice. Erik planned a nice dinner party for me and I really liked it. Made my birthday really good.
My car also broke. The fuel pump needs to be replaced and the mechanics were asking waaaay too much to fix it. So Ian and I bought a car today!! It'll be nice to have a very reliable vehicle between the both of us. It's a cute little scion tc and I looooooove it. I'm soo tired and the week has just started. Have to wake up early.

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 22:50:00 GMT

I guess I haven't really posted anything since I got my promotion. I fully started this week in my new position and love it! There is a ton of work to do all the time, but I like staying busy and just helping everyone. I have already made a few difficult phone calls, but they all ended ok. I feel like this is a start of something great and a start of some meaningful experiences in my life. Ian and I are well and I love living with him. He has helped me out a lot lately since I've had to work more and that makes everything easier.

I'm driving down to Pensacola this weekend. I'm not excited about the drive but I'm super excited to see my mom, connor, and molly. Connor is actually going to talk to me and play a lot more so I am real anxious to see how big he is and talk to him. I also miss the beach like crazy and can't wait to go swimmin with the puppies!!

Thu, 21 May 2009 02:55:23 GMT

So things are happening for me. Last night Ian did all my laundry and cleaned and it just made me feel so good. Don't ask why, it just did because the insane messiness was finally getting to me really bad.

This morning I got asked to go into our executive director's office and I thought I was going to get talked to about filing some important documents when I wasn't suppose to (which I also fixed today and it's all fine) but instead she offered me the social services position. Which of course I accepted! So now I get a hefty salary and a private office and a lot of work. I couldn't be more excited.

I am mostly excited because I feel like MY life is starting. The things that I want and have sacrificed for are coming together. I was told I would never have a social work position because I don't have a masters in social work. HA. FSU still sucks. But in the big picture, I have struggled a lot the past year. I was completely broke, lived out of my car, got extremely depressed, spent months away from the people I love, and moved to a new city by myself. For some reason I knew that this move and this motivation would pay off but I didn't expect for it to start so quickly. Things are going my way and I think I finally deserve it, dammit.

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 23:04:17 GMT

I am finally transitioning with my job. I'm not as tired after work and actually want to hang instead of completely crash. I made Mr. Wood smile today, which was awesome. His wife was excited and said he only smiles now around people whose "look he likes" either way he doesn't make many facial expressions these days and he gave me a huge smile. I'm so happy with this job.

Now I'm ready for some cheese dip and margaritas.

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 19:26:08 GMT

I've been at my job for a month now. The transition is still a little rough, but I think I'm doing well. I absolutely love buying the things I need and paying my bills without even thinking about it. God it's so nice. This is the first time in my life where I have had this satisfaction.

Ian left today for tour. It's kinda sad but I know this leg isn't long and if I ever get lonely there will probably be 5000 youtube videos of each show that I can look up and see.

My brother surprised my family and went down to Orlando this weekend. I was suppose to go down there but decided not to because of the price of plane tickets. Turns out I should have just bought a ticket a month ago because I don't get to see my brother again. Looks like I am going to have to save up money and sick days and just head out west to see them.

Anywho, I still love living in atlanta and having fun when I'm not too tired. Rock of love bus finale is tonight and I'm kinda sad Amy and Ian can't watch it with me. Should be tight though!!!

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 05:12:03 GMT

Well this was the ending of my first week on the job. I actually like it, the people seem like people who are nice to your face and will back stab you in a second...but I am pretty used to that, so I think it will work out just fine. It's nice waking up with a purpose to the day.

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 15:43:12 GMT

This has been a real good week. I had a job interview on Monday and on the next day they told me I had the job. I went in yesterday and got my drug and background check and of course everything is ok so I'm ready to start on Monday! It's an Alzheimer's facility and I'll be the receptionist. Nothing too exciting but it does pay well and I will have full health benefits and a 401k. So I'm pretty stoked. The only thing I'm worried about is if here is where all the fun stops. Hopefully it will not turn out that way. I will have money now so I could make my own fun.

In other news I got to see propagandhi and this weekend is the d4 bouncing souls show. Meg is coming up and i'm super stoked.

It also feels like spring now and it's amazing.

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 16:53:58 GMT

Been back in Atlanta for almost two weeks now. Things are pretty smooth sailing. Kim was just up here this past weekend, which made me super happy.
I can't go back to my bartending job because the restaurant is doing so bad they are cutting shifts. My manager pretty much made it sound like they were closing. I'm not so worried about it. I have the orientation for my planned parenthood job on saturday and I have an interview at emory on Monday. Hopefully both will go well. I'm ready for a good job, but I'm not so sure I'm ready to grow up. As optimistic as I am, I'm sure the same strikes will go against me at these jobs as well. I'm always going to be too young with little experience.

In other news, it is Todd's birthday tonight and we're going to go celebrate and see Tim Barry at the masquerade. I'm sure we will all drink too much whiskey and stumble home. Good thing we are within walking distance.

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 01:28:48 GMT

Before going on poster job I was very suspect on how Ian and I would do being together 24/7. I almost didn't want to just for the fact that I might find out that we couldn't stand each other since it had been so long since we actually spent quality time together without a million people around. Well, if it was a test, I think we passed with flying colors. I know this next leg of tour is going to be miserable for me since now I am used to him being around.

Other than that, it's been pretty fun. The work is hard and my feet and muscles ache from all the loading. In between I get to rest and just chill. We have been going to pretty much all of the northeastern big cities and have been having fun exploring and site seeing.

Also! I am officially out of debt (with the exception of my student loans) and have money to pay my bills for atleast the next few months. I'm definitely feeling optimistic.

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 17:15:05 GMT

Oh man. Christmas was pretty alright. I had a good time just taking time to chill with family. Ian came down to Orlando with me and then we went up to Tallahassee to see his mom and grandma. They are really lovely ladies. Came back up to Athens and hung out while Ian got things ready for the shows up there. Came back to Atlanta yesterday to go back to work, but I won't be here long. Ian and I decided to go on poster job for January and February. I'm a bit concerned but it will be good for us financially.

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 19:29:22 GMT

Today has been a pretty good day even though it's only 2 in the afternoon. I had an interview this morning that had no promise to it, but after I had a nice breakfast by myself and then went christmas shopping. I have everyone's gift except for ian's. I just want to get him something amazing and I don't even know what that is yet...not to mention i'm not going to have the money for it when it actually comes along. Anyways, I just got a call and did a phone interview with a woman and she is going to have me as a volunteer at Planned Parenthood. Which is great news! I filled out an application a while ago and thought they had thrown me out. I'm really excited. Every day seems to be better here.

I couldn't find the nerves...so this will do

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 19:34:09 GMT

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 03:02:44 GMT

This past week seemed like it was really a month long instead of a week. It was a mind overload of everything. Drove to Orlando, Flew to LA, Drove to Vegas, Flew to Orlando, Drove to Tally and then back to atlanta. There was plenty of booze and rediculousness to go around for years. super tight.

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 03:38:47 GMT

I haven't had a good relaxing trip since probably last new years when we went to new york. But next week I have a plane booked to LA. A drive over to Las Vegas and then Thanksgiving with my family in Orlando. I'm so ready to party and gamble.

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 06:41:57 GMT

I love weekends like this. It makes the rest of the week better. When my happiness starts wearing out it seems to be saved just in time. The next time Ian will be here will be time for thanksgiving which I'm really excited about. A nice break to go on a car trip and eat a bunch of delicious food. Until then, I shall survive just fine.

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 16:02:04 GMT

I didn't think I would be as upset about not going to the fest this year as I am. I spend all year waiting for the line up to be posted and predicting what awesome bands are going to be reuniting all to just be completely be let down. I didn't think it would matter much this year as no really impressive bands are reuniting and it would just be the same old crap. But then I realised that it's all the friends I see there only this one time a year that is ripping me apart. And who cares if I see the same bands every year..i LOVE those bands. guh. I feel like such a doofus.

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 22:29:54 GMT

So I got back from Athens a few days ago. It was a nice trip. It was so nice outside that I just did cross word puzzles on Davey's porch and went shopping downtown by myself and got cute dresses. The time apart is still hard but it has been a lot easier. I've been a lot more certain and trusting. I'm just so happy for Davey, Ian, and Alisha that it's rediculous. They are going to have so much fun and they are all doing exactly what they want to do. It's kind of inspiring. I have another interview tomorrow but i'm sure it will end up like nothing like all the others.

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 01:29:06 GMT

Today is the reason I moved to this city. Today is the reason I am in love. Today is the reason I no longer feel depressed.

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 13:30:53 GMT

I think I have always taken responsibility of my actions. I have been honest even though sometimes it sucks. Tallahassee is flooded with dishonest knniving people. I got a bangin job and I'm just thinking about myself right now. Boyfriends and friends, you're #2.

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 14:13:23 GMT

Since when did everyone I know become unsupportive lumps of scum? I can't believe I wanted to help people and actually believed that something could happen here. No one is appreciative anyways. I think I have just made my decision on where I'm going to live next year.

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 17:49:20 GMT

spent this weekend in atlanta and it was absolutely wonderful. I don't see how a trip like that could have gone better...well maybe if I didn't pass out at like 2 one night, but other than that, perfect. Finally I get to go out of town and chill and just have fun seeing people and not getting into stupid little fights here and there.

I'm slowly starting to feel content again, but barely. Depression is a hard hole to climb out of, but I have before. I feel like i'm in job pergatory. I don't exactly want to get real with my job choice yet, but I feel like I have to and my current job choice isn't really cutting it anymore.

A trip to oklahoma might be in store for next week and can spend time with my brother and nephew. I don't know what's going on but I'm dealing with it all one day at a time.

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 00:05:24 GMT

how many times does it take before you know it's the right thing? Is there a rule to this sort of stuff?

in other news, i'm finished with school. Now i don't really know what to do. I guess play guitar hero.

Sat, 10 May 2008 17:59:23 GMT

so i've been really good about controlling my temper for the past half year or so but i'm not doing so good this week. I need to work on this again.